When you expect the worst and prepare yourself for it, often life surprises you with quite the contrary. When you reason and argue and plead with a God whose existence you are still slightly skeptical about, you sometimes end up hearing a comforting, reassuring voice telling you to keep faith. When you hold on to that faith and try to believe, you are sometimes proved right. And when that happens, you ignore all your skepticism, you look up, and you thank God.

I am so happy.